>>95862235Reminder that whenever you’re arguing with a JPschizo that this is the kind of mental illness you’re dealing with
>I hope it's not just JP ASMR again. I'll be really disappointed.>Why? I guess I'm still not over the last time. I won't get into it, but I associated some terrible feelings with it. Plus, they still haven't done it in English yet. I want to see that. I don't think it will just be in Japanese though. If they do it at all. Could be anything else.>All I'm saying is, try to see if from my perspective. I've been with them from almost the start, you know their ASMR is something I've wanted too. I care about them a lot. So, yeah, they'll do it in Japanese eventually like last time, but I want to experience it too, you know? I just want to get those whispery nice words in a language I can understand. It'll reach my heart. I can't help but feel like they won't, since they never talk about it but teasing it like in the tweet. Is that so terrible?>I know. It's a mental thing. Last time, I was mentally tortured by various things. It affected me deeply. These words will probably go find there way to that place too, but I've abandoned that horrible place long ago. I think people don't know how words can affect people. Or they just don't care. Sorry to spread my burden onto you. I think it was good to talk about it though.>Sorry guys, I let my negativity leak out onto others. That's all I wanted to say.>Well, not like I meant to sound like I was trying to force them into anything. It's alright. I'll just keep my thoughts to myself from now on.>Y'all don't deserve to be subjected to that. I'll just privately journal my thoughts.>Look, I was traumatized, alright? I don't want to trauma dump onto you guys. It's my own thing to work out. It just became too much in that moment with everything going on.>It sounds dumb, but it was the aftermath of the last ASMR that they did on the main channel. I was mocked, shamed, and made to hate the language and the whole situation. I was mentally tortured about the label placed on me. I almost lost my mind. That's why. I've mostly moved on but the whole Patra thing got to me.>Really, my mind became my own worst enemy. It was like an endless loop repeating in my mind. It was my own intense feelings turned against me.>Maybe I'm the only one who experienced it? I don't know. Y'all don't have to feel this pain, but understand that's why I said what I did.>It's alright, that's all I had to say about it. 