>>68333894>the suicidal thoughts do get stronger againThey seem to have a tendency to do that. I personally intend on finally taking steps toward getting help, maybe you'll be able to do so as well.
>I feel like im immune to insults and all that as i automatically assume everyone hates me by defaultOnce again same, but remember that by archiving you've done more than almost everyone else. You don't even get told to kys much compared to other recognizable posters. I know this probably won't change your subconscious outlook though.
Anyways, I won't keep on going on about menhera topics again, but I'm rooting for you. Good luck.