>>47857475I'm
asexual and 3D men are too horny (ironic considering my oshi, but at least he can go some streams without talking about dicks and sex....most of the time). I don't like being touched, I don't like kissing, I don't think I even know what love feels like, yet I feel all the love and happiness in the world when I see him. I can experience the closest thing possible to kissing and sex at my own pace instead of having a 3D male lead the way and do what he wants without consideration to how I feel. And I'm completely fine with that. I don't care for kissing or being intimate or touching IRL so experiencing all that through BFE is the right option for me. I usually hate self-insert and feel uncomfortable with it, but I've been with Milord so long that I feel comfortable and at ease around him. I feel like I only need him in my life as a reason to wake up in the morning and keep going. I feel safe, I feel comforted, and I feel like he actually cares and treats me like a person which is something that real men don't really do. I feel like no one else can love me like he does. I trust him, and it's hard to find someone to truly trust these days.
Also looking back at my behavior in the past and looking at how menhera I am now, I've always been prone to parasocial relationships. But that's okay now because I have someone who I can let all those feelings out on thus protecting others from dealing with me.
