>>10989674at first i was schizoposting, goslingposting, falseflagging, etc. ironically, but before i knew it some of it had become a part of me
it's like she brings out the best and the worst parts of me
i keep periodically waking up in the middle of the night to check this thread, her twitter, discord, everything
i set alarms for all of her scheduled streams, even if i know it will ruin my own schedule
i wasn't even in this for the idol or gf experience, but for some reason or another i reached the same conclusion as you
i was here for history grand strategy chuuba, but instead i got to know this multi-talented legitimately charming girl who feels like a genuine good person
i thought the fact that she was /here/ only sweetened the deal, but the juxtaposition proved too much
every shitpost, schizopost, coompost, dogchama, analchama, everything - she's probably read it all, maybe even taken part in it
she is like a pearl cast upon swine, she is like an angel yet descends to the deepest bowels of hell willingly
at times i feel like i fly too close to the sun that is kaneko lumi, yet i do not mind the pain of my wings burning nor do i fear the impending doom that awaits me below
and that terrifies me
the worst part about this is that i had broken up with someone for similar reasons, and it's tearing me up - the way the pain is the same if not worse 