>>1080424I like to try and stay positive while posting here, commenting on youtube and shit like that, but I haven't felt the desire to live in a long time, I think about my future and everything seems so hopeless, spending the rest of my life studying and working a job I don't enjoy, not having the time to do things I like without feeling guilty about it, even hanging out with friends feels hollow and as if I were just wasting their time. The only things that keep me going is not wanting to die before my parents and the small glimmers of hope I get from seeing others achieving happiness.
