>>41381311This is gonna be a big post ok? Feel free to mucho texto skip it if you want but I'm actually trying to give you the best advice I can.
First don't do serious GFE. I don't think you will enjoy it and will just give up and it's gonna turn any fans who are actually into it into antis.
You've talked about past relationships, casual sex and blowjobs before. You're not GFE material.
I think your personality is quite relatable and likable when you aren't trying to put on too much of an act and happen to be in a good mood.
There are some girls who don't do real "gfe" but still manage to get passionate fans who idealize them a lot.
You could go for a similar approach. Don't be tsun, but don't give fake dere either, make guys feel like you are approachable and just like them.
A lot of what GFE boils down to is just vtubers opening up with their chat and sharing part of themselves, that intimacy is what builds the GFE connection. They also do stuff like telling chat they love them or giving them kisses but that's really like a layer that goes on top of the real connection, without that connection it is fake and doesn't really work out that well unless the vtuber is extremely good at acting and has a very attractive model.
And you don't fit either of those.
Being kinda gross and fucked up and tomboyish is part of your charm, I think you should lean into it, but with moderation. Saying that you like onions and garlic and joking you are anime girl Wario is cute and takes advantage of those traits.
There are guys who are into everything.
Regarding the braps, you really have two options.
One is to own it up, accept the brapbros and adopt a "no fucks given, cringe but free" attitude. You can still call out anyone being cringe on your chat, but don't be defensive, get off the high horse, be in on the joke but set boundaries to it.
There are for instance vtubers with big tits and massive cleavages, they know the fans like it, that's why they designed themselves that way. They're confident and not embarrassed about it. But they still have rules against being too sexual about them because they don't want their community and chat to devolve into unga bunga me like titties.
Winks and nods and jokes about them are ok but open thirsting on chat isn't. It teaches the chat to read the room.
This is a key part to any vtuber, they have to wrangle their tard chats.
This would let you act more natural, lean into what can make you appealing and take advantage of the existing audience.
Your other option is to never fart again, ever. Swear that part of you is in the past, own up to your mistakes and genuinely repent for it. Stop being so defensive and blaming the fetishists so much, no one cares about your excuses and it makes you seem dishonest.
Say the farts were a joke, it went too far, it got the wrong attention, you felt gross and won't do it again, that can be your story and if you commit to it you can get away with it. Deny something too much and you draw attention to it. Play it like it's nothing and chat stops caring.
Communities have short attention span.
If people bring up your masturbation streams you can't deny it playing it straight because it's pointless, it exists. But openly admitting it might not be what you want either. You need to learn how to use irony and subtlety to admit something without admitting it. To playfully deny something while acknowledging it.
This is a basic damage control tactic.
Creating a persona is hard and it doesn't work out. Some vtubers have much more success once they find the right one for themselves and their content, their audience and their personality.
I think you have a lot of potential but you need to figure out how to do basic stuff like this first.
I think part of the issue is that you flip flop too much on stuff, you don't commit.
Before you can do something you need to have the will to do what it takes to get it.
Don't force yourself into an act that's outside your comfort zone, but don't just "be yourself".
Find a middle ground where the most relatable, entertaining and cute parts of your real self can shine instead.
Also try content that isn't just games, your gaming commentary is honestly not that interesting. But the shit you say is. So branch out to more types of content. You like 90s cartoons a lot so make a stream where you talk about that. Be more interactive with your chat, let them submit stuff or run polls with them.
Good luck.
