>>91633747Yea this one
Thanks
>>91635891Like "in the moment" fine? Yea.
No. Stuff like "overly sappy emotional positivity," "unconditional love" and "anything beyond my normal status quo of cold, dark and lonely" make me feel extremely uncomfortable, up to and sometimes including physical pain (psychogenic pain, look it up; I developed a hernia from it in high school). I don't know if there's a way out at this point, it's been my life for over a decade, I just want to feel wanted and not want to kill myself because of said feeling wanted. 