Bea if your ADHD is negatively affecting you and your current medication sucks you should work with your doctor to find a more suitable medication and/or dosage if you haven't already tried.
It requires effort and time to find a good balance but the positives should outweigh the negatives.
>CHADhttps://chadd.org/attention-article/choosing-the-best-medication-for-adult-adhd/