>>21872303Thank you for writing all of that, I loved reading it.
>It is nice to fantasize about something like this.It's a great coping tool. Not for everyone but it works for me.
>Could it be that you feel the biggest pleasure as you die from pain right before everything ends?If you spend a lot of time in waves of agony the down time from it turns into bliss. I hate pain but the feeling when it's gone is the some of the best you can ever feel. I talk a lot about Ike chocking me but honestly this really should stay a fantasy. Asphyxiation is really, really painful but intimate if it's hands-on and is known to help with pleasure if not overdone. So it's a perfect fantasy scenario that should be kept there.
The emphasis on coldness that you noticed is interesting to me too, because I tend to prefer cold and distant things to warm and close ones in almost all areas of my life. Both metaphorically and literally.
>without taking out the pain partSome would argue that it's the best part, I'm not that far gone yet though. But it makes the experience complete and familiar enough to navigate in my head safely.
>>21872820It made me giggle too, don't worry. I cannot wait, thank you so much anon. I always go through the archives so I will see it even if I'm not there at the moment you post it.
Thank you so much!
