>>16466829>I realized that I groaned to myself anytime my then fling texted me and asked me to meetI'd do the exact same thing! I'd be watching anime or something by myself, and I'd get a text asking how work or my day was or something, and I'd just feel so inexplicably... bothered. I'd even get sent a nude and simply wouldn't care, and I'm not sure why. Even when I had her over, she'd want to fuck, and I felt like, "Damn, I just wanna play Tony Hawk right now...". And then I was spending time with a different girl on Halloween just driving around at night, and she was having a blast, but I was more invested in myself and thinking of whatever joke I could say or story I could tell that would make her laugh than I actually was in her, because it felt more to me like a performance I was putting on than an actual date to me, because I was so uninvested in it. I went home that night unsure whether that meant I was narcissistic or a misanthrope.
