>>16949576>Pic relatedThe only reason I watch Selen is because I used to know a girl exactly like her from childhood, but later in my teen years I ghosted her because I had a severe PC vidya addiction and she moved on with her life.
A year ago I managed to finally free myself from vidya over-reliance and actually started being more social and reconnected with some old friends and people
I later found out by her mom that she had a massive hidden crush on me but I never noticed it because vidya addiction.
She's no longer in my country, she moved (possibly semi-permanently) to some place in Asia for work-related stuff
Got depression for like 3 months after knowing that and went to /vt/ but then I found out about Nijisanji and then Selen debuted and that improved my mood back in place but every once in a while I still think about her, the only chance I had at legitimately having a perfect partner that shared interests with me and I let her go for videogames, something that won't be there with me in my last moments or wait for me to come back home
No, I tested myself, not gay or trans or whatever.
Yes, I have dated other girls, but it's not the same, not even different enough, there's no connection, just horny with them, no reason for me to keep a farse when I clearly don't like them
I will keep the things as they are right now but I'm not sure what will happen when Selen inevitably stops streaming and I will find myself, alone in my home with no girl to talk about vidya and cuddle, I will just be there with silence itself listening from all the corners of my home.
>"I still miss you R.">"-P." 