>>64987984I don't watch you for any sort of reason like "you're [category]" or because you check off some sort of list, or like if someone else came along with all the same traits they'd be just as good or something. To me Kiki is Kiki, and I love you for being Kiki, and there's nobody else in the world who can be Kiki or fill the Kiki shaped hole in my heart. That means even if you change and improve and grow, I'm still gonna love you. I love you when you're happy and when you're sad and when you're angry and when you're sleepy and when you're genki and when you're silly and when you're serious and when you're sick and when you're healthy and every other way you can be.
I've struggled with self-hated all my life, but I'm trying really hard to improve that. It's silly and a little cringe maybe, but the biggest thing that helps right now is thinking about how I have you in my heart and I need to build a kind and loving heart for you to live in. Every time I start beating myself up over something I think about that, and about you, and about how hard you've tried, and it helps so much. Not trying to say it's your responsibility or anything and I hope when you read this it doesn't burden you like that, I just want you to know that the things you do are good whether you know it or not, and it makes at least this rabbit's life that much humbler.
