>>26838624It is easiest to distance myself from the world until he comes back every day. I live in some kind of dissociated state in between this streams, or sleep or watch something else as a distraction. It is difficult to think or want to talk about anything else... His presence is a lifeline of sorts. I make an effort not to overthink it, because as long as he plagues my mind there is no room in my mind for morbid thoughts. It's quite unstable and not healthy whatsoever, but it's what it takes to live.
