>>38795559All you're doing is getting angry at people because they won't keep themselves from doing things that will remind you of your own inadequacies. They're not the ones with the issue, you are. Watching vtubers just because it keeps you away from yourself is harmful. You are settling for less. You are keeping yourself from living your life because you're afraid of some thing or other.
But if you are really in love with a vtuber, even if it's unrequited, that shows you have the capacity for love. And it's not a sin to be in love with someone. What you should do is take that and apply it to yourself, and others around you. I know that sounds like it's a hard task, but that's all there is to life. It's not a bad thing that you're feeling envious. It's just showing you the things you need. It hurts for a reason.
