>>47087985when I'm faced with a similar struggle between two choices, I flip a coin. If I don't like the outcome, I obviously wanted whatever choice lost, and I just go with that. Worst case in your scenario, you start on the one you think you wanted, realize you didn't and go back to the other. Flip the coin writeanon, put it in destiny's hands, and if you hate what destiny has in store for you, make your own destiny.