>>19079368It's because we're at the edge of our seats, not knowing if she's going to stream or not. I always feel this way every 2-3 day break she takes. I'm in shambles. Maybe I won't feel as tensed up if there was a schedule, but Mumei's situation doesn't really allow her the flexibility to do so. My days just feel empty when she doesn't stream, since they're practically the highlight of my days now. It's not even a parasocial relationship thing. It's like having your highlight of the day watching a cute girl have the time of her life, living it to its fullest, and watching it soothes the soul. Like being happy kids in the park are happy with their childhood. It feels me with peace and joy, a stark contrast to the lonely and empty life I live. It's like watching SOL anime, but more real. I'm too far gone. I'm too lonely and seriously considering to make a tulpa. Mumei come back...
