>>14926144I'm aware, but at the same time, I'm just not interested in interacting with people irl anymore. It's been nothing but bad experiences for me, with abusive family, girlfriends cheating or obviously having other guys on the back burner, people generally taking advantage of me, and I generally don't enjoy being around other people, I just tolerate them when I have to. I'm not someone who's ever wanted kids and a family or anything like that, so this experience has honestly been pretty cozy for me, and I'm definitely feeling much better than I was when I was actively trying to sustain relationships and such, my woes with who I watch becoming popular aside. I used to really dread being alone, seeing Welcome to the N.H.K. as a damning forecast of what my life would be like when I first watched it as a teen, but now I'm actively committed to it, trying to buy a few acres of land far away from cities, and go live alone in the middle of nowhere and stuff like that.
