>>68313316But im tired. Just want to get hit by a truck.
>>68313738If life keeps kicking you while you are down it happens.
>>68314218Have fun trying, i feel to dead inside to lately to even feel arrousal.
Depression talk aside im still having my shit partially together despite everything going bad the past two months and my overthinking being bad. I didnt get drunk yet despite wanting to do so just to get 5 mins of happines.
Grimmis graduation announcement seemed to hit me harder than i thought despite not watching her for months due to depression.
Honestly hear streams helped me cope a lot when i was getting suicidal again in summer 2022. Idk how often i put her silent hill 2 vods on repeat as background noise as she has a relaxing voice (when she is currently making her noise gate suddenly peak) so it may be related to that. I mean i dont watch nyan a lot due to similar reasons, but i guess always having the option to tune in to a stream was nice and grimmi was always nice to put in the background due to her 3 hour long just chatting sections. Oh well ill be fine and sounds like shes happy with what shes gonna do after graduating, so thats good. Everything ends some day, i just didnt expect it this year.
