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Went through /wvt/ and seeing posts about me is weird, especially if it's a negative post, I need thicker skin asap because I feel the need to reply to every single one of them. I'm scared that the only people who ever showed up to say hello are groomers or people just asking for free art. I don't like that just being in a discord that I haven't read or talked in has given me a weird reputation. I'm scared that I've already fucked up everything that I can do and more.
The only thing that's keeping me from making a fool of myself and trying to explain myself to every anon is the fact that I checked my numbers.
I wanted to avoid looking at them for so long but seeing that I have a bunch of followers, so many more that I imagined is actually so fucking crazy to me. I'm not ready to see my ccv but seeing that people actually decided to check me out and even follow hit me harder than I'd like to imagine. I saw 38 followers and holy shit this is one hell of a feel good hobby, I'm gonna try to stop looking at the numbers so I don't get worried but I really want to thank /asp/ for the push to get me to do my first stream.
I've got so many conflicting feelings, but I think the good ones won today.
