>>18123719I get you. It's not even that she asks or needs these things, but there is something about being in love that makes people want to be the best versions of themselves. I picked up drawing again for the first time in over a decade. I still suck ass at it but she noticed I was improving and it made me feel like I was on cloud 9.
Go out and do something anons, could be picking up an instruments again, or drawing, writing, whatever. Do something creative, and share it with Kiki so you can feel the joy I feel. Let her be your muse.