>>87423042>very tired, drained>was working on stuff but very little>i feel weird, icky and gross like brain fog almost>then i had a headache and didnt want to stream>then i had a nap and i felt better and i regretted not streaming>it's like post-cancel clarity>I can explain why i can cancelled so many streams a few weeks ago in a month>TLDR: a project got postpone and i cried>had a misunderstanding with a friend>and she was like "girl like what? i wasnt mad at you">im like, oh my god what if they hate me?>then i come up with reasons why it doesnt matter, honestly it's copium>living in a world of blind optimism is setting yourself up for failure >been very anxious lately, will not overwork myself as much next month>2 videos i have to record by the end of the month>and im doing a cover for halloween>wanted to do a bunch of spooky collab>speaking of collabs, did you watch the ASMR PARADE?>got some maros saying they liked it>i have confession to make about it>i was too lazy to take out my 3Dio so i was like,>im just gonna record on my new streaming mic and im just gonna edit it so it sounds like a 3Dioi wouldn't have guessed
>my favorite from the meme ASMR was Kai's>my fav overall? i really liked Raki's, i liked Eva's, i loved Essie's>i did listen to a lot of them before the event cause Pillow asked me to listen to the submissions and check them for her while she had no power>she kept track of deadlines and all very well even with her power out>im so proud of her, i hope she does more event>i've thrown more ASMR ideas at her>used to watch Xiulan's ASMR for a long time before i got into vtubing >she's one of the people i really wish i could steal her voice>i wish i could steal Raki's voice, Raki has like a perfect voice>she showed me something she was working on today, and i was like I WANT HER VOICE SO BAAAAAD>Mori's voice i would kill for...>if i had Mori's voice i would start vtubing, i would actually debut>>do a mommmy voice>what's the point of me doing a momoy voice?>i like it when it's other girls doing it, if it's my own voice i can't enjoy it>do you guys like women? i like womeni will turn this tako into balls one tentacle at a time until she starts loving her own voice