>>39958488If only they were as idol threats as they are mundane, but sometimes you just kinda have to step back and laugh. I kinda laugh when i tell my therapist about it in a jovial manner. All part of the cope. The first time I listened to Guras ASMR was during a particular bad period, and she gentle, and caringly pulled me back from the edge. I'll never be able to repay her for that. I'm coping, but for that one hour she seemed to really care, and that thing she said "When the world is too loud". I know it's gay and cliche and so many people probably say the same thing, but she'll never know she saved a life that day. Suicidal ideation continues, but I have never since then put into action actual plans to die, and have made no more attempts since then. No more badly tied nooses or bottle of pills in hand. Just thoughts, which i can just let go. </gayfaggotblogpostgarbage>
