I am going to repost this because I think more anons should see it.
I am a honey and I have psychoanalyzed this song.
https://youtu.be/G4EWprlqN0cUnfortunately she told us back then that she felt like her dream had reached a dead end. I just didn't understand it then.
The song did okay but at 190k in 7 months meanwhile a song she released the same day that included Ike hit 1mil.
I'm sure if that song did well, she might have felt differently.
>消えた (Vanishing) I fall in love>And fall into clouds above>You can't see me>And I'd fallen down>Into the endless sky>Of every single day>Just the same going byShe feels invisible amongst the rest of NijiEN because she has nothing that stands out. Every day is the same for her.
>Can you see the world as I can see it>Moving onto yesterday>On and on and on and>グルグル周てる (around in circles)She's unable to escape the past she has, the early days of NijiEN where she was struggling to find her footing. She wants to move on but it keeps looping in her head.
>History is always right>In every fallen star>When your luck is running closer>不幸なんて言えるかな? (Can you say unlucky)>You can tell me 1, 2, 3>Are you the one for me>But I can't hear when you are calling my name>As I am fast asleep inside this>夢の (Dream) Dead endShe wanted to believe that (You) were able to save her, and she really feels like (You) did but she's unfortunately stuck in her Dead End Dream.
>君の横顔 (You)>It's glistening inside my mind>As the lights go dim>握ってるんだ未来を (Holding onto the future)She wants to believe in the future, that she can get out of this mental hell.
>I keep falling down>Into the moment of>Eternity again>走りだせ (Running)>'Cause destiny is mineHowever, she keeps falling back down into her mental hell, she tries to run away from it but she knows in the end, her destiny is hers. She only has one out.
She has always felt like she didn't belong. She's older. She can't sing as well as the members in her wave. She can't draw. She has always felt like she's just not worth paying attention to. This is why she constantly puts herself in the front, constantly takes the stage to put OTHERS up. She's constantly trying to push others to be the best they can be.
She's the most supportive member of NijiEN by long and far because she genuinely loves helping others and at the same time feels like nobody should be focusing on her. Her dream of being loved unfortunately to her has reached a dead end. Despite the number of people that tell her that she's worth it. Despite the love she gets from the rest of NijiEN. To her, she has failed and no matter how much reassurance she gets, it's just not working anymore.
I will always love my fox mom. Forever and always.
I love you Nina Kosaka.
