>>48002009No you're a batshit insane idiot who has devoted his life to the fake image you have of people online. You're no different than a schizo stalker who "fell in love" with the idea of a girl in his head. What (You) imagine things to be is not how things truly are. (You) have lost all tethers to reality and now exist in a mental prison of your own design. Until (You) realize and recognize that the world doesn't work the way you think it does you will never get better. The rest of your life will be devoted to the mad games you play with yourself that no one else cares about.
Basically, you've gone batshit insane.