>>61534871>I want to enjoy life, but I never have. not even as a little little kid. Have you tried anti depress meds? they helped me out. Seems like a book text case.
> the negative thoughts blaming myself ingame and outUsed to happen to me and it was pretty annoying but the mean voices went away with the meds too, believe me.
>Even if I was still fundamentally unable to enjoy anything|In case you did try meds and didnt work, I know of someone with your condition:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anhedoniahttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas_LigottiHe has been an inspiration to me and he has done some of my favorite lovecraftian writings. I really recommend The Conspiracy Against the Human Race
Even if you fail to be happy, at least you can make others happy.
The first thing is to realize this isn't your fault. Your brain is fundamentally broken, and worse than that, it tells you it is your fault. Unless you have full ahedonia your brain might get fixed and you will see the world in a different way. I thought I was like that until the right meds worked out, I in fact went through several through the years and I had already given up.
After that, the next thing is to find something you love: love makes hard work easy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RCMM4qwz3U 