>>77582363That wouldnt change anything if it would even happen during my lifetime. There was never anything good, and there never will be in the future and im tired of coping with things will get better after date or thing X happened. This shitty apartment only causes me stress and anxiety daily making the suicidal thoughts get worse and nothing makes me really feel happy. My deadline is end of next year, if i didnt off myself before then as summer gets way too fucking hot here and summer 2022 almost killed me due to that. If i still didnt find a new place or things got better by Dec 2025 im calling it quits like i should have done in 2021.
