>>86539649Recently my schizoness has been getting a hold of me and I don't know how much longer I'll last
The JP tweets and retweets that always get more engagement and their massive JP growth makes me feel terrible. Did you know their crying over Akiba Misdo tweet has gotten more engagement than any of their recent Ame tweets? I'm not a JP schizo in the sense that I hate them doing content, but I do 100% believe they would be more popular and successful and maybe even happier if they were fully JP streamers and that thought tears away at me
I hate the constant numberfagging and shilling. I know it helps them and can see the results but I just find it so distasteful. To me Hololive was always meant to be simple. Just cute girls having fun together. Constantly talking about numbers and how successful things are and BUY THE VOICEPACKS just makes me think of shit like Cover's quarterly financial reports and how they plan to make money off FUWAMOCO and not the simple fun that drove me to EN to begin with
And my biggest sin. I find myself wishing they were less popular. That I would be happier with them being smaller and they could then just focus on being silly streamers and playing stuff like VNs and retro games. Even though I know that's not what they want. I feel conflicted about this all the time and it really eats me up inside. Like I fell in love with the wrong part of them and now I'm hurting them by not finding the current situation as fun anymore