>>55786177>first official girlfriend was some menhera femanon and lost virginity to her. long term relationship and her bpd meant she thinks im only in it for sex so frequent sex>any friends i had before would magically stop talking to me or start hating me. be afraid to get closer to people afterwards>full time job with 6 figs income because i got my shit together and got shilled by parents with more than 40+ years in the civil industry. naturally a hard worker so i keep my job and do alright>after getting broken by that one solo con, make up my mind to be more friendlier and approachable. full glow up era. gym, fashion, more attention to my hobbies>get into sonny because he sounded like my old bros from a 4chan mmo guild (i have no friends at this point)>drink alcohol everytime before trying to talk to the briskadets in some servef to calm my nerves. get to the point where i can talk without alcohol>still scared of getting close to people>talk to anons here and find out a famelira is gonna attend crx>mask my nervousness by being loud and friendly>STILL SCARED OF GETTING CLOSE TO PEOPLEsorry for the massive post but i hide a lot
if youve met me you know i laugh a lot. it means im nervous and anxious 