>>43715373My first fic, which I've never released of course, was roughly 10k words of (you) slowly piecing it together that Risu is a futa and has been feeding you her cum (as well as putting it in several other things) but by the time you learn it is too late and she rapes you. At the time, I was excited to write whatever the fuck I wanted because I thought the people would be actually interested if I posted it. Now I don't really write anything more complex than sex in the three main orifices or a handjob, because if I do anything beyond that, the story either gets shit on, gets no attention or gets one guy saying the smut fic was so weird that he thought it was the funniest comedy fic he's ever seen (god bless that guy)
In short, I personally lost the spark for writing fic after fic because I learned who my audience really was. That's not anyone's fault, it's just what it is