>>42296992I'm pretty sure most people are like this with their oshi, you'll find male fans of female oshis do this too. Your english is fine, it's just "feel" instead of "feels" when the subject is plural.
I started getting out of bed more often to accomplish things for my oshi since being depressed as fuck for the past 5 or so years. I had gotten a job last year and started studying to find a better job. I felt so unmotivated to do anything since my personal goals seemed pointless and I was filled with despair for a while. Then seeing my oshi build himself up doing the exact thing I've been wanting since I discovered anime in the first place filled me with hope again. It made me feel like it really was possible to tap into this niche and have it be profitable. I started setting smaller goals for myself to work toward a bigger one. His ASMR saying that just getting out of bed was enough really stuck out to me because when you feel like everything is hopeless and pointless, getting out of bed really can feel like a struggle. I'm so glad he exists. He has his down days sometimes but we all do, and he gets back up again to keep going beyond. If he can be strong for me, I should be strong for him. I love him just that much.
