>>84640192>I wish my emotions didnt swing from happy to sad to angryThat's how I felt when I didn't know how to handle my oshi doing something really shitty. You want to love them but you can't just brush what they did under the rug but other fans seem to be ignoring it so you're even more confused on how to feel. And you even find small moments to feel that happiness for them again despite all they've done, leaving your feelings to be even more confusing. As long as you get those feelings out somewhere, even if it's here, you're a step further away from becoming a schizo.
Best of luck sorting things out, Nakarat.