>>14919960I kind of just watch whoever is streaming games I find interesting or who I feel like listening to in general. I only ever chat in smaller streams, however, because there's no point doing it in larger ones where it's instantly swept away to me. It just so happened that I ended up getting attached to my 2 oshis specifically, because they're both hyper-attentive and positive to the chat and will remember things about you or even ask about you when you aren't there, and the main one I like is kind of flirty, while the other one is more older sibling like. I'm not weird about it or anything, because I don't even chat all that frequently or attention whore, and don't use any social media to be able to interact with them outside of the chat. But I feel a tinge of sadness knowing that they'll both inevitably get really popular and I'll just be another bit of text rushing past the screen, if I even bother chatting at all by then, and forgotten among all the other people who come in. I'd still watch them though, because I genuinely find them entertaining outside of whatever attention I get from them. I obviously know it's not real, so I'm not completely delusional about it or anything, but I think the problem is partially that getting to chat and joke around with them directly is genuinely one of the only things I have to look forward to, because everything else in life either sucks or doesn't interest me. Doesn't help that I lost interest in women irl over a year ago either.
