>>10957192because they will never be real and the moment I realized that my whole life turned upside down and I don't want to fool myself with a lie like that any longer. I have moved on, it is painful, yes, but it is ultimately needed as I could not simply bear to suffer in such a self-destructive delusion any longer.
I love them, I still do, but it simply isn't meant to be, and I would rather suffer in reality and grind through it than let myself live through a blissful lie any longer. The world does not wait for me, and sooner or later, I have to face reality. I'd rather do it now.
