>>16005161I am very depressed, so much that I quit my job and I've started to let things slip. Sometimes I ask myself why keep on living.
The main source of my depression is realizing that I'll probably not move to Japan and marry my oshi.
But the worst part is not because it's possible but because it will probably not happen. I've grasped a decent level of Jap, I have a /fit/ body, even am decently tall, my oshi is not from a corporation or massively successful.
But I'm a gaikokujin schizo. And I could probably meet someone else, but I would never be happy is it's not that middle aged woman pretending to be a cat on the internet.
