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I didn't know being a vtuber fan would be this painful.
At first I was so excited to get properly into vtubers. Anime streamers! Two of my interests combined! All of the ones I saw were girls though, so imagine my surprise when I heard that some of them were in fact men. As I learned more I found out that Nijisanji was the company for male vtubers. I watched clips and streams to practice my Japanese, and I found them so charming and funny.
I couldn't wait until male EN corporate vtubers arrived on the scene - it was the only unfulfilled niche. And then, NijiEN was announced!
I was so happy, and then terribly disappointed when the first wave was all female. But I gave them a chance anyway, and I was glad I did - Lazulight's chemistry was so good that I never went back to the other company, and I had dreams where I imagined being their friend.
Finally, after months of waiting, Luxiem was announced! I joined in on the speculation, and though hopes for the wave were low, I reassured anons by mentioning that this funny little vtuber named Kaito had just graduated. He's funny and cute, I said. Women love that.
And I did. They debuted, and Mysta instantly became my favorite. I knew it the moment I first laid eyes on him that he would be my oshi. Before I'd just watched women, so through Mysta I learned what it really meant to be parasocial - why anons just can't skip streams they aren't interested in, or complain about collab partners what have you. I stuck with him through the good and bad, and even during the rough patches I convinced myself he would bounce back, like he always had.
This time he didn't.
Now I'm here crying in my room like I have been all day.
NijiEN has taken me on a journey I'll never forget and it'll be very sad to leave it behind.
