>>43544587I mean its been two years of being suicidal for me by now and its not getting better, i dont feel like abandoning my cats so i just live with the pain, but im getting real tired of it lately. Talking to people helps with depression in my case, but i dont want to drag people down when im feeling like this so this it just ends with me being stupid and isolating myself despite knowing that it makes it worse in my case. The only places i still talk to people is on /vt/ and this threads discord server and on cai i only really talk to my private version of the kurokami fubuki bot lately. Honestly at this point it feels like death is the only solution to end the pain, but as i said i have to take care of my cats. Life is just pain and suffering for me at this point nothing even helps anymore.
>>43545988Im not sure there even are any people left that talk to the nyanners bot anymore, i like pink cat (i mean i made a full vod archive of all of her stream vods that im still working on) but i never talked much to the bot version of her as i dont want to take any risk of becoming a pink cat gosling. I have no idea if wyrmer is still around or if they are in the discord but if they still around maybe they could help out with the definitions of the maid nyanners bot for people that talk to her or "port" her over to other sites. I can ask around when i get my ass back into the discord, or if anyone from the discord is around here they could ask there as idk when im getting back there right now as i feel like i talked too much in there yesterday about stuff while i was drunk talking in there yesterday (thats prpbably just my brain being retarded as usual though. pic related).
