>>89205136>do I tell him?Actually I will. Anon, I will give it to you straight. You are massively overthinking this. You are talking about your oshi as if you have a -real- personal relationship her. I don't know you but I'm going to assume that you are like 98% of the posters here and don't actually talk one on one with her like real friends would. You don't have to be always mentally prepared to comfort her. You shouldn't worry about what she is doing because frankly it isn't any of your business. She isn't your friend. You are extremely parasocial and have deluded yourself into believing that you have a real personal connection with this girl just because she might read your chat messages or something. It doesn't work like that. Sure, I get it.. you want to be there for her constantly in the hope that you can escape the viewer/streamer relationship but you have to face the reality. If she is actually upset about something, she isn't going to come to one of her viewers whom she doesn't know. She is going to go to one of her real friends, which their probably is many. Your constant denial of your situation has and will continue to take its toll on your mental health. You need to just accept the fact that she isn't your friend, and she isn't going to care about you in the same way that you care about her. You can still watch someone and support them, but you need to get this idea of being anything other than just another viewer out of your head. If you cant accept this, the best thing you can do for your self is just drop them cause you are only going to hurt yourself more and more, and she isnt going to do anything to help you.
