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inb4 tl;dr,
Just some gosling shitpost.
At this moment I really have a tornado of menhera mixed thoughts.
On one side, I realize I might be over-idolizing her, she have flaws and imbalance in her brain causing a lot of chaos and rollercoaster at times, maybe even worse IRL, and I'd probably sage her AWAY at first glance if I met her as 3D streamer and not this cute 4chan bear.
Obviously she wouldn't stand me for a second in private like the rest of society, I am human trash that spent his teenagerhood and most of later life on imageboards unaware of future consequences.
On the other side..I feel like I can learn a lot from her, she taught me meaning of oshi, respect, cringe dm lack of a communication skill etc.
She have weird days, but I'm very happy she exists /here/ and now, doing her best with pulling the best ideas from her amazing weird imagination and not running away with money.
She gives me power to wake up from bed.
I kneel to oil balons, pamper this crazy japanese bear because I can't really.
tfw
