>>65051054For me it's probably rooted in autism
because of various reasons I can't connect with human beings.
I like to daydream of an angel girlfriend, flawless and perfect, gift from God, etc.
I'm also obsessed with rules and order, so it sometimes feels like I'm not allowed to feel joy or pleasure. so an angel girlfriend that makes everything right is the dream.
Also I just prefer heavenly aesthetics because I'm a moralfaggot who hates evil. Always followed orders, it never got me anywhere while the kids who broke all the rules excelled and succeeded. etc