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>not gonna lie, i feel like the 1 year anniversary 24h stream kinda changed my brain chemistry *laughs*>after i did that stream i was like man... i want to stream all the time, i want to hang out with you guys all the time>and i feel that my addiction to streaming has jus been getting intenser and intenser>i want to hang out with you guys all the time but obviously i cant just deliver streams i need to do more than just want>i need to do more than just that>dude, it's like 30minutes left to 12 hours and it felt so short >seriously, from the bottom of my hear...>im gonna be a little bit sappy okay, listen to my sappiness... this is the only time im going to->let me finish my drink before i get very sappy >but i really do mean it when i say im really grateful for you guys and from the bottom of my heart... i mean, this is kinda cringe but... UWAWAW ...i really do, love you guys>i really do love you guys, seriously>i feel like im not very talented... i cant draw, im very bad at singing, you know, im not very engaging as a person, i feel like my charm is very bad>im not very appealing as a person>and i feel like honestly... you know, throughout my life i always assumed, you know... i would be like->there was a point in my life, especially right before i started streaming where i kind of accepted i would always be lonely *nervous laughter*>it was always really hard to fin people that would actually pay attention to me and would actually give me the time of the day>but the fact that i have you guys, it has really changed by life for the better...>like, my confidence has grown so much>i feel genuinely happy for the first in so many years>im like, actually- im genuinely so grateful for you all, like, seriously>i know it's kinda lame because im noe like- there's so much of me that's kinda lame, im not very talented, im not very groundbreaking, i dont have like a group of people i that i can always collab with and stuff like that so im not exactly excited in that point either>so i'm just me and that's it>but i don't know... i feel like i've been given so much more than i... really... deserve... >you know what i mean? i know that imposter syndrome is a big thing but i feel like i've really been given so much more than i deserve >so thank you so much again, i really appreciate it>you guys are seriously the kindest people ever and i', so happy that i've been able to meet you in this life time *nervous giggle* im really happy that i have been born in this live time to meet you >and you know, i hope that you guys are always doing well>thank you so much, seriously>i feel you guys have really changed my life and streaming has really changed my life>i know i havent done anything really epic the past two years but hopefully that will be able to change now>just so you know you really have made an impact, i know that sometimes people can really feellke they dont matter but just know that you really have made an impact in my life >and even if you are a lurker and stuff too, i really do mean it when i say i think or all of mt baachis and i hope you're okay
>i hope you are all doing well and you know, i really hope the best for all of you, you guys are so awesome and so kind>and i really hope you guys are doing well because you know... i dunno... >i know its kind of nasty and people feel kind of bleh at being being parasocial or whatever >but i dont really care, whatever, yes i am parasocial and yes i am very attached but i dont give a F whatever i dont care *laughs* even if it's gross, even if it's weird even if that creeps people out, i dont care, you just have to deal with it im sorry *laughs*>i mean it to everybody >thank you for showing me support>i feel like i need to do so much more >>we embrace it>im very thankful to know you all>thank you so much, seriously from the bottom of my heart>i love allllll of you guys individually and i want you to do sooo well and im just saying if you feel a little discourage or whatever, just know that i am thinking about you and i am cheering you on, okay?>i hope i do not freak people out with the chu-chus either >>nevermind the fact that she wants to run experiments on baachis' brains >when i, when i, when i want to bonk you guys over the head with hammers and mallets and i want to rip into you, it's a form of affection okay?>i want to eat you guys okay?>i want to eat you guys and i want to consume you guys and i want to make you a part of my body but it's all affection... you know what i mean? you get what i mean?>we wanting to be a part of you is very affectionate okay?>i want to become one *awkward laugh*>it's very affectionate okay?>i think it is cuteness aggression>i feel i want to pet you guys and chu-chu you guys the same way i chu-chu my catyeah, same
would lovingly rip and tear you apart to consume every last bit of your flesh and gnaw on all your bones, Essie
