>>55297547Coni. I realized she's my oshi around the same time that she asked us to oshi her, people beforehand in these threads were like "she's going to betray you, she doesn't care lol", I was really sad seeing that since just within the first week of her streaming she bettered my life, they made me doubt her a bit but I found out around the same time that she asked us to oshi her that it was her anti's trying to ruin things for her.
I instantly oshi'd after I realized the true dynamic I had with her and that I want her to succeed in spite of those people.. I love her words of encouragement, they matter and are loved even more due to this. I really resonate with the continuing in spite of theme and she encourages us how we encourage her even though she doesn't know of our story.. At first I encouraged and supported her without even knowing her story, only due to her character... She doesn't know my struggles and yet still encourages me without knowing my character nor that I even relate to the theme of her tale...
Her not knowing that I relate to that theme while she encourages me gives me a sort of weird, support from the backstage feel on top of the obvious effects of being encouraged. You basically become the force of good luck or blessing, helping better things for her except you're capable and at least if you're me in need of being encouraged back. The dynamic is divine bliss. I wish I could correlate my shift in perspective with the streams she's done so far but its harder since I was watching her even when I had doubts.
