>>68534916>I know it's involuntary and that you can't help itMy overthinking of past conversations was useful for once. You were right seems like it really is a involuntary thing due to my past. I used to never talk about personal things to even friends and restricted what i talked about to games, anything personal was off limits to me. This is longest conversation i had with kuro in months.
One of the friends online ive known for 10 years i only this year start to talk about personal things to. Hes also the one who helped me realize i have a 99% chance of having autism as they know my behavior a lot and i involuntary spammed their DMs (like i did with you nymous a day or so ago, again sorryi didnt even realize it).
Its really weird how finding vtubers/nyanners indirectly help me become less of a robot and realize my issues. I mean i didnt change due to that, ive always been the way i currently am but i just didnt show my personal side to people, likey an subconscious reaction due to "trauma" (i still cant see it as that or abuse seeing as it was only verbally).
Also sorry for my constant blogging it seems like the way i talk is also related to thazas i feel the need to overexplain so people cant misunderstand me. I guess me trying to simply "fix" that isnt easy and why i cant simply change it from one moment to the next. I tried before but failed pretty quickly.
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