>>26839418I get it. I wake up, get ready for his stream, focus my attention as much as I can on him and then the rest of the day is just a blur, often times an unpleasant one until the next day. I relisten and rewatch a lot of his stuff. It helps that I have a bad case of daydreaming, close to maladaptive, so I can just spend more hours with him inside my head. Streams from the others help too, but I get distracted easily... I also don't care that it's unhealthy, there's no value to me in the things I might lose living this way. As I said, I'm kind of waiting for that breaking point. Thank you for talking with me about this, I appreciate it.
