>>50106095I feel you, Pomie... It's a struggle. If I could just not work and get away with it I would. If I could abandon family obligations I would... But I can't, and I miss simpler times all the time. Used to feel like I was just grinding to survive for the longest time, but I've kind of found the trajectory I want to go down... That doesn't mean the hard stuff isn't there. Dad's aging, mom gets like 2-4 surgeries a year and I have no idea how long she'll be around, and she's menhera. Maintaining the house, paying the bills, balancing exercise, working two jobs, paying off a car, watching streams to relax, wanting to do my hobbies, trying to find time for it all and get sleep... Some days I wish I could just run into the woods and forget it all, but then I think about my old man and how I'm the only one who's going to be there for him since the divorce and his bad relationship with his sisters back in England.
Hang in there, Pomie. I hope things get better.
