>>91631998>Did you have a miraculous NDEsI had meditated a lot in uni and had two significant "spiritual" experiences, one with very real lasting physical consequences. TL;DR: I couldn't see shit for a day or see colors for two weeks. So I knew 'there is something to it' but couldn't exactly fit the puzzle pieces together. Then years later I had progress thanks to YT algo recommending /x/ shorts to me and reading books they referenced. It's an endless pit of content each new book you read references 10 more. I was never really enthusiastic about my studies at school or uni, but this stuff rustles my jimmies.
I have enough self-reflection to realize this is largely a sublimation of my inceldon, an unspent energy if you will, but hey, it's something.
I ride a motorcycle for 10+ years successfully (I didn't die yet) so I had plenty opportunities to pray in tight moments.
>>91632144Heh, I thought someone would get it. Just the plain old big Rus.
>>91632294>I'm just trying to speculate on the process.In my mind, human consciousness is a "precious commodity" like it is in developed world democracies. It's not that they are inherently benevolent, it's that they as a system understand that more value and profit can be extracted from alive and well working individual than a dead or injured one, so they take care of society "cells" so to speak. The same applies to greater scale, Kingdom of Heaven or whatever you can call it. Human consciousness is not nearly cheap enough to throw it away on a cockroach reincarnation or something like that.
