>>14716116I agree with you in most aspects of this, honestly. In particular the part about Shine being a small streamer and seeming "more likely" is what hits the hardest, because it's really true and it's been really difficult to deal with even with my awareness of the situation being at play.
I don't expect to stop feeling
love for her because as you said it's not something that you literally just tell yourself not to do, but I can try to dial the feelings back little by little. Helps too that I'm not even in the same continent as her so I don't get entirely delusional about it.
Something about this whole ordeal that concerns me too is that if I try hard enough to stop
loving her, I worry I might flip the complete other way and just become an anti and I don't want that to happen either because I really like her.
I feel weird typing all this out but I guess it's good to get it out of my system and get other anons to shit on me for seeing how much of a loser I am for falling into the parasocial trap
