>>26571539You can overcome this, anon. I know you can!
Believe me, I'm an awful person with a lot of mental issues, hurt a lot of people I cared about with my breakdowns and psychotic outbreaks (which is what initially drove me away from everyone, because I hate seeing people I care about being hurt). But you know what... I'm doing fine now. I know I'll never be normal, but I still can be happy. I still can pursue my dreams! I still can find people I relate to, and form deep connections. You're not alone with whatever you're dealing with! There are ways to mitigate things you can't control about yourself, just give it some time, grind, and patience.