>>26692570I don't really pay attention to chat enough to know anybody's names or feel any particular way about them. But on the rare occasion that I'm aware of myself feeling weird, I usually just go do something else for a bit. YouTube tends to hold a lot of my comments for uploader review, for some reason, so for a couple of weeks, I was worried I might have done something to make my oshi dislike me whenever everyone's comments were getting hearts or replies except mine, when she actually simply hadn't seen it yet, since my comment was really just auto filtered by the perfectly functioning bots on Susan's small indie website that she hosts from her garage. I watched 2049 for the first time that particular day I realized that my stuff just gets hidden until she checks the filter and manually okays it. And then the other week, when I was being a doomer about not being too busy to watch live, I stopped reading the thread while at work, where people are talking about how cool the stream that I was missing was, and listened to the entire discography of some indie band I found in a day. I'm pretty internal with all my icky weirdness though, so I opt for being sad in my room or something for awhile until I'm fine, rather than being destructive and making a scene like some freaks do.
