>>99632471I ended up watching
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6G5ZNcIwUQ0 at random.
Honestly felt a lot better and switched to playing Oblivion after a lil bit with this on my other monitor.
Then I saw pic rel again and now the waterworks finally start again after yesterday.
I'm glad I can always go back, but I don't want to move forward.
Honestly it feels pathetic to be this sad.
Idk I had an abrupt end to a very close friendship earlier in the year over fucking nothing and I was intensely sad for a short while but I didn't even cry.
Honestly I can't cry at most things even if needed which is not me trying to be edgy it kinda fucking blows.
But for this I've cried a lot.
