>>49057539>bringing down your fans instead of being their motivationWhen will they learn? if it wasn't for Gura I would've never found the will to get a job and work for almost a year straight, after being a depressed neet for almost a decade. Now Gura herself is losing motivation and I don't know what can I do to make her enjoy streaming for her chumbies again like she used to until a year ago. All my messages and posts had no effect, no matter what achievements I tell her about, she doesn't understand it was thanks to her and that I love her so much. Feels like she just grows more animosity towards streaming and towards her fans every passing day and it's an awful feel, it brings back some shitty school memories.
[blog]There was a girl I liked in 4th grade/elementary school but she hated the shit out of me because I was kinda autistic. Her boyfriend, if it can be called so in 4th grade, was son of the head teacher and tried to get back at me me with his friends, stealing my stickers and trading cards. One day he mocked me in front of her, she lashed at me with insults and told me she'd rather die than be my girlfriend. I had never even told her that I liked her but she found out because my mom told her mom I was writing a poem for her and prepared even a gift, some jade statuette I won at the amusement park. I gave up on everything obviously. There was another girl I liked in middle school 1st year, she was like the idol of the school year. I confessed to her and got politely rejected, felt like trash for days. When the thugs of the same year found that me the weirdo dared to confess to her, they made me their underdog and forced me to steal from her, otherwise they would've hit me and stolen my stuff instead. I stole her favorite highlighter from right under her nose, she saw and she pitied me, it was the most pathetic moment of my middle school years. That year I was held back because of all the absences, I hated school so much. The other day I found my old drawing album and all my middle school drawings were about blowing up the school, I had completely memory holed that. Better to avoid thinking about high school at all, I've already vented enough and I haven't even had my first beer of the day yet. Excuse this blog of mine, I've been feeling kinda shit for the past few months.[/blog]
